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A little bit about my past
I used to be a very clueless man. Or thats what I thought for today, when thinking back. Or, more like, I thought I good enough with all I have and might. But no. It is quite the opposite. I am not set. I am not ready. I am still nothing to face whats to come.
I was just busy with reality I am in. I was never get a good time to think about anything or around me. What I know, is working. Get money. Setting up for assets needed for the future. I often comparing myself with the others for my own standard measurement of success. I just wanted a secure future for me and giving love and happiness for my (ex) lover.
I have my time to get it all good, but eventually it will run out. I did not see that coming. My routine no longer or does not work anymore. My energy is completely drained yet I don’t have a proper chance to fill it back. I don’t have proper support, too. My plan is never properly happened or you could say it is die before happening. My mind is completely polluted. Everything just failed miserably. I just cannot keep with the demand I am facing.
Until I finally aware and decided to accept that not something that I can fight, so I just drop it all. And go silent.
It is not something I take lightly.
Now and future
Now I have enough and proper time to think about my past mistakes and regrets.
With my current knowledge, past experiences also clear mind, I am confident I can fix myself to be a better man than I am used to be.
I want to be a proper, good man and leader for my lover. I want to be able to provide bread and butter but also affection.
I may break or fall again. But I will make myself and get back up again.
Also my past sin that haunting me is no longer controlling me.
I will be better and stronger than before in every context.
Thank you for everyone
I also want to say thank you so much for everyone around me that giving me supportive things. All my prayers for you.